Life's questions

Lately Life has been asking me daily ‘are you compassionate and loving?’ I have been doing a sterling job of replying, if I say so myself. Life always checks that we mean what we say, that we really want to honour the choices we say we make. Oh my, I am discovering a part of myself I have not fully appreciated, although I think some of my peeps would say they always knew me that way. The joy of discovering me leaves me filled with gratitude for the healthy and positive lifestyle choices I have made, for my openness to the universe and for working so hard to heal myself and to show others that they are beautiful and can heal themselves.

So I continue to seek the beauty inside of myself and others. I strain toward the light, following its glow, drawing it in and radiating it out.

Life in Transition

My life is in transition, I have spent the past few months trying to create a new rhythm in my life. The past few days I have rested, watched too many crappy hollywood movies, reflected, relaxed, had fun with the family children, rejuvenated and glimpsed at my present/future. This mid-year break is for some deeper reflection. 


As I reflect and take stock I am tempted at times to fight and argue with others, thankfully I understand that these are the precise issues I need to delve deeper into, within me. That this issue is telling me something about myself. I have to unravel the mystery and piece the puzzle together, and usually I have to forgive myself, forgive others and give me permission to do something differently. Then move on to the next issue.


It is illuminating to actually see how easily I can choose to blame others or beat myself up for something and not resolve the matters. Just as interesting and educational is seeing how if I set my mind to it I can move through that moment of blaming me /others and shift into a I'm ok, you're ok view and find clarity and resolution. I am thankful that I practice daily reflection, heaven knows what a mess I would be if I did not.  


I find I am evaluating everything, only motherhood is sacred. I am questioning all my actions / commitments, my motivation for doing them and checking that the values I say I am serving are truly being served. Or is that just what I tell myself I am serving. 


I try to use love and karma (unconditional universal service ) as my tools for measurement of success - tricky because I have to watch out for my own mind games and self sabotage. 


I am also moving into action and starting to do some of the tasks I have been neglecting in my personal life - this is the real rejuvenating, taking control of what is most important - beginning with me, with my home. 

Love

Love is the message and the message is love...... love has to be my way of doing, the outcome of my action and my being.  Love is in short supply in our world and often understood as a male -female binding only and even then it may be a distortion of love. Another common understanding of love is its heavenly nature.  Love as an act of god and not humans.

Then we also have a common understanding of motherly love, between mother and child.

Many of us are learning in this very special time we are living in that love is so much more.... that it has the power to transform and is easily accessible to all. It is a heavenly,  saintly quality that we already have / are, Love. We are love and we are heavenly.