Sunday 8 December 2013

Nelson Rolihlahla Mandela 1918 - 2013

Nelson Rolihlahla Mandela 1918 - 2013

Somehow gone too soon, normally a statement one would make when a young person dies. Today the world's response to his death suggests it is true for this 95 year old! I do not feel too sad at his passing, recently when he was very ill I felt the need to let go of him, to allow an ailing body some peace. Many were praying for his recovery at that time. Though yesterday driving into the Cape Town city centre and seeing the flags on the street poles flying at half mast brought tears to my eyes.  These flags greeted me daily for months - flying high and honouring the nation's father. Now it honours him in death.

I remember being introduced to Mandela as our symbol of hope and struggle in South Africa, he was in prison not yet 20 years then. We had stickers of Mandela with a black strip across his eyes - because it is illegal to have a proper picture of a banned person's face. We had them stuck on our bedroom wardrobes, my sisters and I. We were young girls, pubescent yet fully enrolled in the cause of Oliver Tambo, Chris Hani, Nelson Mandela, Steve Biko and Robert Sobukwe! We learnt of the great leaders in our country, the ones they did not talk about at school. We learnt from our local leaders some who since became well known comrades and later members of parliament and cabinet in the free SA. We learnt of Sol Plaatjie, Clemens Kadalie, Billy Nair, Liz Abrahams, Cissy Gool and many others, of revolutionary groups in other countries Samora Machel in Mozambique and Fidel Castro & Che Guevara and the Cuban revolution. We sat in reading circles with Ashley Forbes, as teenagers reading and unpacking Marx's dialectic materialism and other theories that helped us to see the world with new eyes. Then we applied our reading by organising mass meetings and rallying people together to support trade union strikes, school boycotts, consumer boycotts, and any possible protest action - marches, candle light vigils. Mandela was always an embodiment of all of these people and of all of this work. He was never revered just for himself, because we knew as he said he would die for this freedom,  all or most of us who enrolled in this cause too would die for this freedom. Many did die, Neil Agett, Ashley Kriel, Solomon Mahlangu,  Matthew Goniwe, Ruth First.

We were part of the struggle,  we called it the struggle back then. All the revolutionary work to realise a new SA where we will have security and comfort,  the people would govern, the land belonged to all who lived on it and worked it and the doors of learning and culture would be open. These were not Mandela's ideals, these and more were the ideals of the south african people who contributed to and drafted the Freedom Charter under the leadership of the African National Congress and adopted in 25, 26 June 1955 at the Congress of the People in Kliptown. Mandela and the other Rivonia trialists showed us a steadfastness and commitment to the struggle that kept the comrades on the ground inspired to keep going. And likewise for the comrades underground. We knew that we could not leave them to languish in jail. Their courage fueled our courage and ours fueled theirs. Already by this time many comrades were in jail and many had been executed others were on deathrow. Mandela was our poster boy and was willing as always to serve. So we called for his release everywhere including at the UN where Stevie Wonder supported that call and sang (cannot recall the song, I just called to say I love you maybe) for Mandela at the UN. We spray painted his face with the black strip across the walls of the cape flats, in the streets. While graf artists were spraying dance moves, I was a graf artist spraying liberation slogans an Mandela's face with the black strip together with other comrades in our area, LOGRA. Then I had no idea I was a graf artist! We were just doing our revolutionary duty. 

We sang many freedom songs, one of my favourite english ones was a song we often sang:
Mandela, Mandela,  Mandela prescribes for freedom
Mandela say freedom now
Show us the way to freedom
In our land South Africa

Rolihlahla Mandela freedom is in your hands
Show us the way to freedom
in our land South Africa

He was a beacon of hope, we kept our eye on his / their release as a key milestone on our way to freedom. A release we all celebrated with fervour what a glorious day it was on the parade  in the city of cape town when he addressed the world for the first time after his release. Although the apartheid government was still in place we knew that change was  here. Mandela assured us by his presence and his word, indeed change was here. We were assured as we saw the unbanning of many banned organisations and release of political prisoners. Our collective victory!

As I write this I realise that his life has meant more to me as that symbol and representation that every cause needs, that champion that gives the cause a face and helps it to harness support. He went on to do this for most of his remaining years. Thank you Madiba.

Nelson Mandela, was human and can be criticised for sunset clauses and flying too close to the sun as he courted big money and literally sold himself,  the Mandela brand. Certainly I have much to say about that. He can also be frowned at for his 3 marriages and how sadly the first Mrs Mandela has been relegated to nonexistent overshadowed by a flamboyant and charismatic Winnie and the elegant, First Lady, Graca wife to two of Africa's greatest sons and revolutionary  in her own right! He was not perfect. He was, our Mandela and our inspiration and we thank him for that. Africa has had many great leaders, none have been as influential as this man.

Although this powerful beacon of hope has passed away, I cannot despair, knowing that his struggle has been my struggle and here I stand, my spear in my hand and my fist held high. Let's continue to water the tree of freedom! A luta continua!

Monday 7 October 2013

Dharma - explanation from the Chopra Center

Dharma is an ancient Sanskrit word with numerous layers of meaning. It commonly refers to the universal force that guides our life and carries us safely through the threats and challenges along the way. The closest equivalent to dharma in the West is the concept of grace, the protection and guidance of a loving God. Living in dharma means acting in concert with one’s divine purpose in life.
Following our dharma in the deepest sense means that we’re not really obeying the laws or regulations set down by society. Dharma isn’t about the external world but about aligning with the pure spiritual force within. When our intentions, thoughts, words, and actions support our life’s purpose, we are in dharma. And then we bring fulfillment to ourselves and everyone else affected by our actions.
In his book The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success, Deepak Chopra describes three aspects of the law of dharma. The first is that we are all here to discover our higher self, to realize that our essential nature is spiritual. Inside each person is a divine being that yearns to come into full expression.
The second part of the law of dharma states that everyone has a unique talent, something they do better than anyone else on the planet We are here in this life to find out what our own special gift is. One clue that we’ve discovered our dharma is that we lose track of time and experience timeless awareness whenever we’re doing that particular thing. We enter a state of bliss.
Using our unique talent to serve humanity is the third aspect of the law of dharma. When we use our creative expression to meet the needs of other people, we experience true joy and ecstasy. We detach from the fear and struggle of the ego and surrender to the wisdom of our higher self. Living in dharma allows us to enjoy the boundless love of our spiritual essence.

Friday 4 October 2013

Namasté - eplanation of term, taken from The Chopra Center online library

Namasté is both a spoken Indian expression and a symbolic gesture that people use when greeting each other or in parting. Pronounced “na-ma-stay,” the term derives from Sanskrit and literally means “I bow to you.” It’s more commonly translated as “the divine light in me honors the divine light in you” or “the God within me greets the God within you.” Namasté is the recognition that we are all equal and share a common divinity.
To perform the namasté gesture, place your palms together in a prayer position in front of your heart and slightly bow your head. You may also close your eyes if you wish. In the West, people usually speak the word namasté as they bow, but in India it’s understood that the gesture alone carries the same meaning. To indicate especially deep respect, you may put your hands together in front of your forehead (the site of the mystic third eye), gently bow your head, and bring hands down to your heart. There’s also a third form of namasté, in which the palms are raised completely above the head. This gesture shows the most reverence and is only used to venerate God and the holiest gurus.
Bringing the hands together is a highly symbolic gesture. According to tradition, the right hand represents the higher self or the divine within, while the left hand represents the lower, worldly self. By pressing the palms together, the person performing namasté unites these two aspects and attempts to connect with the individual before him or her. Bowing also expresses love and respect.
In the United States, many yoga instructors close their classes by performing namasté as a sign of appreciation and honor for their students, inviting them to connect with their own heart and truth. Westerners who have adopted the term and gesture generally endow it with a deeply sacred intention. In modern Southeast Asia, on the other hand, some individuals use namasté more informally to greet others in everyday life. Nonetheless, many people in India and elsewhere believe that the greeting is more than a simple “hello” or “hi” and use it to recognize that everyone shares a common divinity.
We have chosen the name Namasté for our newsletter because its meaning reflects the Chopra Center’s mission to honor the sacred nature of our readers and promote the union or integration of the mind, body, and spirit.

sacred contracts

Once again I am reminded that we learn what we need to learn at the right time. A number of years ago, I heard about Caroline Myss's book Sacred Contracts. At some stage I explored a bit of it on the internet.  I never got around to acquiring or reading the book till a year ago when I bought it, and only a month ago I started to read it. I can see why its taken me a while to get to this book. It is challenging me to let go of some good friends that have overstayed their welcome - the good friends being old fears and behaviours that no longer serve, outdated responses to the current reality. At the same time it is demanding of me to dig very deep and draw on my inner resources to grow in the direction I need to as I come to understand myself on a deeper and more intimate level. Lots of hard work.... I needed to be ready to do this. Grateful that I am doing it. 

A powerful book, and I am not yet half way. It is also reminding me that surrender is part of the journey sometimes and one needs to know when surrender is required. 

Thursday 3 October 2013

maze

living life is an endless navigation through a maze littered with surprise pitstops and interesting destinations - some pleasant and others, not so much.

Friday 20 September 2013

unnoticed

there is a sadness in our world that we fail to see, the loss of hope. loosing hope is not obvious it is not the barrel of the gun to the head or the grabbing of a bag or the ruthless taking of virginity. although these actions can result in loss of hope. loss of hope comes quietly, slowly at times we do not even realise we are loosing it until it is no longer there. hope leaves with the disappointments, the assaults and robberies, hope leaves with dreams that never become reality, hope leaves when we never seem to get what we need and when support systems crumble or fail us hope is gone.

gone. often departure unnoticed and unannounced, no loud speaker announcement. just gradually, gradually, until it's gone and we are left saddened and heartbroken by nothing in particular. So our sadness goes unnoticed.

Wednesday 18 September 2013

i too am here

I have not been a very diligent blogger this year, my last post was June, where I bemoaned that my last post was April. Enuff said!

I am travelling inside to find what it is that is trying to talk to me, what it is that wants to come out, to be spoken, to be seen and heard, to be identified, acknowledged, recognised.
I am here, can you see me I am here. I cannot be in the dark, inconspicuous and invisble any longer. Yes ma'am,  no ma'am, upstairs sir, downstairs sir! I too have a voice that needs to be heard, I too have a song to sing and a poem to recite. My heart also bleeds with love lost and friends passed on. I too have suffered. I too have won and created and nurtured beautiful gardens of pansies, poppies and tulips, my hands have touched many lives and cleaned wounds, stuck band aids on little children, cut the nails of old people, held the hand of brave yet fearful soldiers and my lips they too have kissed a newborn babe's forward, the hand of a maiden and the lips of a hard working man. My feet have moved me across cities, carried me home tired after work and eagerly and surely across mountains. I too am here! Look at me and know that I too am here!


Friday 7 June 2013

a pause sign

Yesterday my voice was going, I insisted on talking. Today I cannot speak, not one word. I have now discovered a new way to limit my interaction, save airtime and more importantly I realise how much I like to speak. Those of you who know me, will already know this. Indeed I don't always know when to keep quiet. It's interesting though to feel my tongue moving to make a sound and none comes out. I feel the universe is telling me to be more at home, to slow down, to reflect more and just be. Since the last time i blogged was April, i think its definitely saying that to me.... 

Sometimes I get caught up in busy work life activity and then I can be sure that something will redirect me to stop, show me a pause sign so that i can remember that what i need to do is plan an outing with my grandson, laugh more, spend time with aging parents, play and cook in the kitchen, exercise and simply relax.

Saturday 20 April 2013

Born to Run


I just finished reading Born to Run by Christopher McDougall. What a fabulous read –beautiful, lyrical writing.  The characters are absolutely amazing and rich – Caballo Blanco, Coach Vigil, Manuel Luna, the Tarahumara, Scott Jurek and Emil Zatopek. Exploration of the origins of humans or is it the origins of running …. what’s the difference.  Understanding ancient peoples’ Tarahumara, Kalahari Bushmen and the ancient ways of being and running. Discovering all of us humans are natural born runners. Discovering that great humans are great runners and the great runners are great humans.
An intriguing story that is so amazing and as I read I ask myself, are these people real? I google. Yes, they are all real, so real! I am speechless and spend time learning more about the characters via the internet.  Christopher is just as amazing in this story as the rest of the characters he writes about.
 I understand some things about my own movement now.  I love being barefoot and feel affirmed.  I know the feeling when you run and want to stop and then say to yourself, time to dig deep and keep going and it becomes wonderful.  I am not a runner, but I have been there and now I want to go there all the time.
Read this book if you love running and if you don’t. It will change your perspective on running guaranteed.

Wednesday 17 April 2013

Aluta Continua - It does not matter how much resources you have, if you don't know how to use them, they will never be enough.

It is amazing that i have not yet been fired from my blog. I am trying to be a regular blogger. This requires regular getting up a bit earlier to blog.... Needless to say, that is not happening.

Twice in one week I have received the message about use of resources: It does not matter how much resources you have, if you don't know how to use them, they will never be enough.

Of course it's so easy to start pointing a finger at another squandering something over there. I am trying to stop and ask myself, what resources do I have and how am I using them?

Resources: time, abilities & skills, knowledge of self, others & world, access to finance, relationships, contacts & connections -  access to people who are good to know, food, shelter, family, intellect, healthy body, an open heart, spirituality

Do I use them? Yes I do. Do I use them smartly? How am I using them?

time - to the max, i share my time with many people, i do have lazy periods though. I should spend more time at home with my homework and my one and only house mate & beautiful daughter. I can spend more time in the gym and running outdoors & more time on self care like resting.

people - not as much as someone else may; i ask for assistance directly and also just cast the net out  into - especially the FB world - and see what fish is caught. Gosh not a christian yet this sounds like i am a fisher of men. mmmm

abilities & skills, knowledge of self, others & world, intellect - always applying this and sharing it with others. one of the sources of my shine! not doing as much coaching and blogging as i want to though!

access to finance, food, shelter - i share, i appreciate, i give without condition at times and on some occasions with conditions.

family [the houstons including the adopted daughters :) ; houston-dramat alliance; the allies; my omhle family] - my family is a resource / a source of knowledge, support, cheerleading, challenge, a safe space, toilers alongside me in the struggle for social & economic justice; can give more love back to these amazing beings who have a capacity for strengthening and evolving!

healthy body - underutilised and undervalued resource; not as well maintained as I would like; appreciated and certainly in use

an open heart, spirituality - i strive and strive. recently have let slip on my regular forgiveness practice practices.... need to bring it back.

Whose to know if the path I have chosen for how I use a certain resource is correct? I guess I am the judge of that based on my values. Love has to be the reason and the outcome. Love for me, others and the world.
Aluta Continua

Sunday 17 March 2013

I see you

I want to believe you
Yet how can I when your story telling was so elaborate and consistent I can only think of it as manipulation
I want to hold you to show you I care
Yet how can I when you hold a grenade in your hand and pretend that everything Is ok


I do not know when or how or why you acquired that grenade, only that it's in your hand and you will not put it down
I was misled too many times, believing it was gone,
Now faith has left me
I trust no more


I cannot place my home and child in your hands for fear that your hunger
For self destruction may cease to discriminate against us and one day take us with you.

I want you to know, truly know that we do love you, yet this I know is a matter beyond a simple love
It is a matter that requires me to understand that I love you and me and her. And loving you and staending next to you now holding that bomb, standing next to you, I may just blow myself up and what then?


Can I try and save you, risk my destruction and leave my other children motherless.. this is the choice I have to love, and risk being destroyed, to love and walk away
To love and maybe save your life

But my faith in you is gone with
The fantasy stories of how you have stopped taking drugs and go for drug counseling and tests.... stories all stories

I see you with a grenade in your hand

Monday 11 February 2013

Life presents us with gifts untold, at times it is a real challenge to see the gift. Just like anyone who lives near a volcano will say,"how can anybody live near this dangerous being? It is unsafe and when it erupts it is unforgiving, we do not need volcanoes." Yet the fruit of a volcano is diamonds, most precious stones. We all have volcanoes in our lives, it is then that we have to dig deep and find that inner strength to act wisely, decisively and with purpose. We all can do this even when we think how will i find the strength we will. Today I need to dig deep.

Tuesday 22 January 2013

obstacles on our paths

At times it feels like others thwart our goals and throw obstacles in our paths which hold us back. Today I am reminded that I am my own worst enemy. That I can choose to see those perceived obstacles as points of clarification, as questions that ask "do you really want to travel this path?" "are you sure you want to achieve this goal?". I can reflect instead of strain.

I can act swiftly and decisively and turn the challenge into a positive, make a friend of it and learn.

These obstacles, slow me down, perhaps I was moving too fast. Perhaps I do not have the tools I will need for this journey and this pause is helping me to acquire them.

Today, let me sit still long enough to see that my obstacles are friends and not hold it against those who place them there, instead let me practice forgiveness of others and of myself.